The other night, the children went to bed unusually early, so my husband and I were able to talk for a few minutes.
When children are young, it is difficult for couples to take time for conversation alone because the rhythm of their lives is almost entirely child-centered. ButI think it's important to be conscious of trying to have this kind of time with each other, to the extent that we don't overwhelm each other.I think recently.
Then, as we talked about recent developments and future goals, my husband
I don't know, I guess life is just like that.plus-minus zeroI think it's a "good" thing.
He said.
I'm talking to all you car enthusiasts out there.I own a lot of sports cars like Porsche, which is awesome!Even those who appear to be "good" from the outside are going through a lot of hardships behind their backs.
Some people are successful now, but they had a very difficult experience in the past.
Everyone sees the grass is greener on other people's lawns, and "I like that guy. He's great.I sometimes envy people who are successful, but the aspects that others see are only a part of their success, and I think that the more successful people are, the more difficult their experiences are.
And, in some cases, even if they have the money, there's still something going on with family problems or health issues.
And.
I'm sure... someone once said, "Life is plus or minus zero, so if you have a little bit of a positive when you die, that's all that matters.I think he said something like, "I don't know..." or something like that...（Which is it?)I thought of this as I listened to my husband's story.
In fact, my husband is usually a hail mary.People who are getting results without having to work hard.I feel that it is often seen as a way of saying "I'm not a good person.
But according to my husband.
In my case, I was completely unable to study at all until I graduated from high school, my grades were always poor, and I was not accepted to any universities during my current school years. In fact, I don't remember much before the age of 18. That's how unforgettable my school days were.
Also, in my 20s, I was a salaried employee of a reasonably good company, but my family's business was not doing well and I had to supplement the working capital with my salary. So money was always tight.
In my early thirties, I started my own business, but for the first four or five years, it didn't ring a bell, my income was considerably lower than that of others my age, and there was a time when I was allowed to rent a corner of the office of a senior president for free.
Thanks to that, my work is going well now, but looking back, I think that the period when things didn't go well was also a reasonably long time.
And.
Until I got married, I too had been a "I wonder if my husband is someone who has lived without a lot of trouble.I remember being a little surprised to learn that he had actually overcome a lot, because I thought he was a "good guy.
I'm not a "inscrutable are the ways of heavenI like the word "happiness". It is a saying that we should not be easily happy or sad because happiness and unhappiness in life are unpredictable, and happiness always turns into unhappiness, and unhappiness into happiness.
I think my twenties were quite a series of hardships, if I do say so myself. I failed at job hunting, my personal life didn't go well, and even though I started my own business, sales didn't increase as much as I wanted and my debts only increased.
Why am I doing so poorly? Why does God keep giving me trials?
And there were times when I almost felt desperate.
At the time, I could not honestly rejoice in the happiness of my friends around me, and I hated my despicable state of being, but the situation did not get better even though I tried hard and struggled, and it was very painful.
Well, when I look back now, objectively, at my actions and thoughts at the time, I think, "I was a good person.See, if that's the way it's going to work, it's not going to work.It's like, "I'm so desperate," and it's obvious that I wasn't making the right decisions, but on the other hand, I'm like, "I'm glad it didn't work out that time.I think now, "I'm not sure.
It's not so much that "those days made me who I am today."Glad it didn't work out that time...I think from the bottom of my heart (laughs).
If things had gone well, I am sure that I would be in a lot of trouble now because I would have branched out into so many different things, and I would be working without regard for my family, and my relationship with my family would have disintegrated.
And make no mistake.I never set up this Porsche blog.The world of Porsche was not exposed to the new world that was opened up to them through Porsche.
My current situation is that although childcare can be a challenge in its own right, and sometimes I feel overwhelmed, I am still able to take care of my children.It's pretty well balanced in my opinion.I have a feeling.
While connecting with society through my work and expanding my world through my blog, I am able to spend a lot of time with my children and am in a flexible environment where there is no set routine in particular and I can turn to any way I want as things change.
Well, I am able to live this way of life because my husband works hard to earn money and tells me that I am free to do as I please, so I am truly grateful in many ways.
No one knows what will happen in the future, and I can't say for sure that I won't be able to drive a Porsche again, but I'm sure that I will look back on that in hindsight and say, "I'll be able to drive a Porsche again.I'm glad it was that one.It would be an event that would seem to be a "good thing.
Instead of envying other people's lives, I hope to continue to live my own life and aim to be a little more positive when I die.
