I Want to Buy a Porsche Myself

Since around this summer, I’ve started a new challenge.

An entrepreneur I know asked me, “Could you take on something like this?” and I jumped at the chance.

Just like when I started this blog from scratch, this project is about creating something from zero and growing it.

I didn’t know if it would succeed, and with parenting and blogging already keeping me busy, I knew it would get hectic. But when I heard about it, excitement outweighed any anxiety.

There’s no guarantee of success. But if I let this opportunity pass, I feel I’d regret it for the rest of my life.

That’s why I grabbed it. Of course, family always comes first… and now I’m right in the middle of this challenge.

When I started this Porsche blog, my goal was “to buy my own Porsche with my own money.” I’ve always loved the Panamera, so my aim was to earn enough from the blog to buy a Panamera GTS.

Four years have passed since then, and thanks to you, the blog’s traffic has grown significantly, and advertising revenue has started coming in.

That said, the amount is still tiny. After server fees and other expenses, not much is left in my hands.

So at some point, I started thinking it’s impossible to buy a Porsche on blog earnings alone. (I also have loan repayments for the company I started in my twenties.)

But while running the blog, I often see posts about “someone bought their dream car” or “someone enjoying life with their beloved car,” and every time I see that, my feeling that “having your own car is really wonderful” grows stronger.

But if I buy a car now, I really won’t have any money left, and I definitely can’t save for a Porsche down payment. The goal of buying a Porsche will just get pushed further away…

I struggled with this a lot, but I decided that rather than spending days wanting a car, it’s better for me to just buy one outright. So I looked for a fun manual car within my budget and recently bought a Swift Sport.

That meant I had to rethink how I earn money going forward.

“Should I focus again on the company I had before… but the business model is tough… or start another blog? That’s not realistic either.”

Just as I was thinking this, the opportunity I mentioned at the start came along.

It was totally unexpected, so I thought, “Did buying the Swift Sport change my luck? Or was it just coincidence…” but I decided to take the chance.

A World You Can Only See When You Buy It Yourself

A while ago, a friend said to me,

“Your husband earns the money, you have Porsches at home, and you could just relax and focus on housework and parenting, so why are you working so hard? That’s amazing but tough, isn’t it?”

Indeed… (-_-).

Looking at the mothers of my children’s classmates, many live comfortably and calmly, fully engaged with their kids. Seeing that honestly makes me think, “That’s wonderful.”

I should probably live like that too, but why do I keep moving like I’m possessed? I sometimes even get scared because I’m so absorbed in what I’m doing, like “something has taken over me.”

When asked, “So, do you want to earn money because you want lots of things?” the answer is no.

I’ve never been very materialistic. I usually use one bag or wallet until it’s worn out or broken. Just recently, the heels of my favorite driving shoes finally gave out.

My husband says,

“Why do you keep wearing those filthy shoes? Instead of just one pair, why not buy several and rotate them so they’re always clean?”

But I reply,

“Even if I had many, I’d probably just keep wearing my favorite pair over and over, so one is enough,” and I keep wearing those dirty shoes. (Yeah, I should wash them.)

So it’s not that I work just to buy things.

Then why do I keep pushing myself so hard?

I think it’s because of curiosity to see a world I haven’t yet experienced.

“What kind of world will I see if I can earn well on my own?”
“What kind of world will open up if I buy a Porsche myself?”

Money isn’t everything, but gaining the ability to earn changes the scenery and experiences you can have.

Right now, my husband earns and I get to ride the Porsches he buys, seeing many wonderful sights. But I imagine the view must be completely different between “being given” and “creating it with your own power.”

And if I can make it happen myself, life will surely become even more interesting and fun.

I think it will still take a little while for this summer’s challenge to bear fruit, but the path to the once seemingly endless goal of “buying a Porsche” is gradually becoming clearer.

I imagine how emotional and happy I’ll be the day I sign the contract, and I daydream about “which Porsche suits me best—Panamera, or maybe a 911 Turbo S?”

Lately, I haven’t been able to write blog posts at my previous pace, but my passion hasn’t faded (it’s just that I really don’t have the time). I want to keep blogging at my own pace, so I’d be grateful if you continue to watch over me.

I’ll do my best!