About My Former Self

Until a few years ago, I think I was a completely different person. Back then, I lived by the belief that “work was my top priority in life.” I prioritized what I wanted to do over my children or family, believing it was absolutely essential to grow year by year and to keep challenging myself at all times. That was my way of life.

At that time, I truly believed “I am someone who can change the world.” (So young, haha) I thought, “I want to solve the problems I see through my work. Even if there’s no market, I can make an impact on the world by finding the right approach.” Many seniors around me had succeeded that way, so I admired them deeply and naturally believed I could do the same.

Also, over those years, small miracles happened here and there, which only made me more overconfident and deluded. (I tend to get carried away easily, lol)

Knowing My Limits

My mindset changed dramatically about a year ago. After my second daughter was born and various things happened both at work and in my personal life, I finally accepted the immediate results of about eight years of continuous challenges and came to understand my true limits.

“I don’t have the power to change the world.”

Because even when Steve Jobs, the visionary leader who changed the world, passed away, the world kept turning, and Apple’s performance has remained strong so far. Yet I had been overestimating myself and realized I had an incredible arrogance in my thinking.

Where Does My Value Lie?

I’m not denying the value of “challenging yourself” or “having big goals”—those are wonderful things. Many things people say are “impossible” can be done if you try, and you grow a lot in the process. “Trying and failing” is hundreds of times more valuable than just saying “I want to but never acting.”

So, challenges themselves are good and meaningful.

But at the same time, I think it’s important to calmly know your limits and face reality honestly.

Anyway, a bit off-topic, but after learning firsthand last year that I don’t have the power to change the world, I reconsidered.

Even if I stop working, the world will keep turning. So, no matter what happens to me, what kind of person I become, or how the world changes, where is the place that will always need me most?

Only after thinking that deeply did I realize how precious my family right in front of me is.

No matter how often I get irritated, or say harsh things like “Don’t follow me around!” or how far I am from being a perfect mother, my daughters fully accept me and adore me every day, even fighting over who gets to be with me (laughs).

No matter how much I say “I really hate cooking” and buy ready-made meals, or how bad I am at cleaning and only occasionally use the Roomba, my husband silently supports me, always saying, “Do what you want to do,” and gives me tremendous support for this blog.

Being able to share wonderful moments with this precious family and knowing that my presence brings smiles to them feels like I’ve already succeeded in life.

It was around the time I started thinking like this that, quite unexpectedly, I began writing this blog.

Why I Love the Panamera

“Prioritizing picking up my daughter from kindergarten over my own time”—my old friends would be shocked to hear that. I used to be constantly on the move, but now I spend almost the entire day at home, doing housework, blogging, and working on my computer.

But honestly, I don’t feel like I’m sacrificing what I want to do with this lifestyle. On the contrary, I’m satisfied and even feel refreshed because I gave my all to my challenges.

That’s why I think “the Panamera is truly a wonderful car.” (Whoa, suddenly, haha) It lets our family of four go on drives together, the parents can enjoy driving, and the kids are comfortable. While the 911 is also fantastic, the Panamera’s ability to let the whole family share rich moments makes it more appealing to me right now.

Step by Step, Little by Little

Recently, I boldly wrote that I want this blog to become “a helpful resource for everyone considering buying a Porsche.”

→[Reference Article] Welcome Home, PORSCHE – Seriously Considering the Future Direction of This Blog

Of course, that’s the goal I’m aiming for, but I’m not thinking of “jumping straight there” or “taking the shortest path.” First and foremost, I want to make this blog a place where the people reading it now can enjoy the articles daily and find useful information that makes them want to come back.

While valuing that, I want to build it up step by step and hopefully reach that goal someday.

Looking back at my 20s, I realize I was an incredibly arrogant jerk, so I really feel sorry to my colleagues, coworkers, juniors, and subordinates. I often said things like “If you’re not motivated, why don’t you quit?” or “I don’t get why you don’t challenge yourself at work because you’re worried about balancing your private life.” I’m sorry for saying those things…

I was someone who couldn’t understand others’ feelings or pain… Now, I think I could have brought out more of everyone’s potential… But those experiences made me who I am today.

At the same time, there’s still a part of me that’s stubbornly waiting for the right opportunity, thinking “I’m not going to let my life end like this.”

Well, this turned into a bit of a rambling blog, but this is the kind of person writing it, so thank you for your continued support m(_ _)m